Beyond Black And White Talk

The question: "Hi this is probably the first time I've reached out to anyone about the issue i have. I'm a 32 yr old white male and I for the first time dated a dark skinned black woman. I fell madly in love with her. I would do anything for her. But the thing of the matter is she had been in several bad relationships and the one that did the most damage was the relationship with the father of her child. At this time there is a 5 yr age difference. My concern is every time we talk we always end up talking about the future between us. We also more and more talk about things we want to open up about. She tells me shes timid shy about letting me in on certain aspects on how she is. We've been talking again and known each other for 4 yrs. I still love her to this day with from the bottom of my heart. I know being friends is what she wants but feeling as i do it makes it difficult for me and how I feel. Ive expressed how I feel about her and she tries to express how she feel. As a recent unfolding event (mind you