Episode 1 Subconscious Mind

My name is Joey, and I am a recovering douchebag. I've lived an amazing life. I've traveled the world on someone else's dime, enjoyed a college-degree-level career without a degree, and became one of many peacocking urban males populating major coastal cities, fancy office buildings, convention centers, hotel lobbies, bars, and restaurants. Oh, yes. I was as pathetic as you're probably imagining. I was deploying fashion, discourse, athletics, and other personas to manage a public appearance of physicality, status, expertise, and productivity. After all, when a man looks good and speaks well, little else matters, right? I became adept at avoiding accountability and hard labor and was quickly seated at society's table by acting as a light source of optimism, a form of entertainment, a visual, an acoustic, a conversation piece...a storyteller. I was living the life everyone coveted, and I knew it. I was even jealous of myself at times. However, within every insecure and arrogant male resides a scared little boy