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Before success is a reality, it must be a belief as small as a mustard seed, yet strong enough to split mountains. This is a reflection on guarding your deepest knowing against the slow erosion of doubt.

“At 57, I’m not winding down—I’m spiraling in. This is not the finale. This is the reclamation.”In this Wisdom Walk edition of the Soulcruzer Podcast, I step into the mythic terrain of Act III—the Reclamation Phase. Blending Joseph Campbell’s Hero’s Journey, James Hillman’s mythic imagination, and the soul-deep symbolism of the Osho Zen Tarot, this episode explores the turning of the inner wheel and the soulful integration that defines the latter chapters of life. In this episode: What it means to live in Act III—not as decline, but as the return with the elixirHow soul integration and legacy begin with letting go of split identitiesEmbodied reflections on the three Osho Zen cards drawn for this walk:The Torn One (Schizophrenia) – the inner conflict of clinging to two worldsThe Dream Gazer (Postponement) – the cost of waiting to step into the full-color lifeThe Cosmic Dancer (Change) – surrendering to the rhythm of the turning wheelA real-time mythic meditation on life, death, purpose, and legacyThe personal

What if your brain is less like a truth detector and more like a belief-confirming machine? In this episode, we dive into one of Robert Anton Wilson’s most potent mind-bombs: the Thinker-Prover dynamic from Prometheus Rising.Your Thinker forms beliefs. Your Prover goes out and finds the evidence. Whatever you believe—threat or magic, doom or synchronicity—your Prover will prove it. That’s not just metaphor; it’s the engine behind your reality tunnel.We explore:The brain as a bio-computer with confirmation biasReality tunnels and how they’re builtBelief as a tool—not a truthHow to practice belief engineering as a path to freedomThis isn’t about being right—it’s about being free. About wielding belief like a magician, not wearing it like a leash. Listen now and install a new lens. Reality’s more malleable than you think.

In this episode, I crack open Chapter 10 of Storythinking by Angus Fletcher—the part of the book that hit me in the gut and lit a fire in my mind. We explore the ancient roots of meaning, the limitations of happiness, and why story—not logic—may hold the real answer to life’s biggest question. If you're a rogue learner, a guerrilla thinker, or someone who's felt trapped in the cold machinery of reason, this one's for you. It’s about reclaiming your narrative brain and stepping back into the myth.

This morning I caught myself asking the same question I’ve asked a hundred times in my journal: Am I actually changing… or just looping in disguise?

For the full context, read mt blog post: Unravelling into a tangle of hyperlinks, associative thinking and the metaphysics of writing.

For centuries, we’ve been conditioned to believe that logic is king and story is its court jester—entertaining but ultimately frivolous. From the moment we step into a classroom, we’re trained to think in bullet points, equations, and neatly categorised facts. We’re rewarded for linear reasoning and penalised for wandering too far down imaginative paths.But here’s the thing: our brains don’t work that way. We are creatures of story. We make sense of the world not through cold, mechanical logic, but through myths, narratives, and meaning woven from experience. Storytelling is the oldest and most natural way of learning, yet it has been systematically erased from education in favour of rigid logic, industrial efficiency, and standardised thinking.In this episode, we crack open the foundations of this system and ask: Why were we taught to think against our nature? What happens when we reclaim storytelling as our primary way of knowing? The answer is more than a return to an old way of thinking—it’s a quiet revol

In this episode, I explore the practice of interstitial journaling which is about cultivating a micro-reflection practice that captures the nuanced micro-moments of your day.

In this episode, I explore the King archetype as revealed through my mytho-expressive writing practice, highlighting my realization of needing to reclaim inner leadership. I discuss reframing internal adversaries as constructive opponents and the empowering role of mythic imagination. Join me as I reconnect with the fragments of my psyche to restore balance and purpose.

Christopher Hyatt’s statement—“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF, GET RID OF YOURSELF FIRST”—carries the raw, confrontational energy of radical transformation. At first glance, it seems paradoxical: how can self-improvement begin with self-erasure? But Hyatt, isn’t speaking in riddles—he’s pointing to something fundamental about identity, limitation, and personal power. Let's discuss.

In this episode of Soulcruzer, I dive into the ancient concept of the daimon—that inner force that’s been calling me (and maybe you) toward something deeper, something more. I’ll share how I’ve learned to recognize its whispers, create the right conditions to connect with it, and most importantly, act on its guidance. This isn’t about comfort—it’s about transformation. If you’ve ever felt pulled toward an unseen path, this episode is for you.

Reality is not what it seems—it’s a construct, a fragile illusion upheld by collective belief. For those who glimpse beyond the veil, the realization can be both liberating and terrifying: nothing has inherent meaning. Some recoil into nihilism, paralyzed by the absurdity of it all. But the Existential Chaos Magician? They see this as the ultimate opportunity.This post is an invocation—a challenge to embrace the void, not as an abyss, but as an open field of possibility. If meaning is a construct, then belief is a tool. If the rules of reality are arbitrary, then you can rewrite them. The Existential Chaos Magician moves through life with intent, shaping reality through will, perception, and play. This is not passive acceptance but active creation.What does it mean to truly live on your own terms? To discard imposed narratives, sculpt your own mythology, and transform the chaos of existence into personal power? This post explores the guiding principles, practices, and mindset of the Existential Chaos Magician

In this episode, I take you along for an afternoon walk as I explore a phrase that caught my attention: “Learn to see the shapes of things rather than the stories.” What does it mean to perceive reality without immediately turning it into a narrative? How do we strip experience down to its raw structure before the mind rushes in to impose meaning?I dive into the tyranny of story—how our minds are wired to turn life into a coherent narrative, even when reality itself is more like a landscape, a shifting web of patterns rather than a neatly plotted novel. What if we could resist the urge to explain everything and instead train ourselves to see the world through shapes, structures, and rhythms?Through reflections on art, perception, emotions, and chaos magick, I explore how shifting our way of seeing could help us break free from rigid narratives and gain more creative control over our experience.

In this episode, I explore the idea of living life as an RPG (Role-Playing Game)—what it means to own your narrative, choose your playstyle, define your character arc, and fully embrace the journey of discovery, challenge, and transformation. Inspired by my love of RPGs like Dungeons & Dragons and Gamma World, I break down a Life RPG Framework that helps map out our personal adventures.

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes Episode Overview Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I’m recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that’s just part of the journey. In this episode, I dive into some thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter J. Carroll, a foundational text in chaos magic. I finished listening to it during my travels—six hours in the car, a couple more on the train—and it sparked some reflections I wanted to share with you.  Main Themes & Takeaways Reality is Malleable – What if reality isn’t fixed but something that can be shaped? What if belief isn’t something you have but something you use? Liber Null presents magic as a kind of hands-on science for hacking consciousness, testing reality, and bending the world to your will. Chaos Magic as a Radical Shift – Written in the late 1970s, Liber Null challenged traditional esot

I'm thrilled to bring back the Musical Journey Show! This is a nostalgic nod to my past, harking back to the days when I hosted on Radio Warwickshire. It's been years since I've been down this path, but there’s something about 2025 that feels like the perfect moment for its revival. "Because you've gotta have goals" after all, and returning to the rhythm of this show is definitely one of mine.

Episode Summary:Hey folks, join me on one of my early morning walks where I dive into everything from infantry flashbacks to creative frustrations and the tools I’ve been using to keep my head straight. This week, I’ve been wrestling with some mental blocks, but breaking out my trusty paper journal helped me see things more clearly. Along the way, I talk about the differences between digital and analogue journaling, share my thoughts on populism and politics, and geek out a bit over Google Notebook LM, a fantastic AI-powered tool I’ve been experimenting with. This episode is a blend of reflections, insights, and, as always, a bit of wandering off the beaten path.

Q: what is it about me that i can't keep my virtual hands off of creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology?