Soulcruzer

In this episode, I explore the practice of interstitial journaling which is about cultivating a micro-reflection practice that captures the nuanced micro-moments of your day.

In this episode, I explore the King archetype as revealed through my mytho-expressive writing practice, highlighting my realization of needing to reclaim inner leadership. I discuss reframing internal adversaries as constructive opponents and the empowering role of mythic imagination. Join me as I reconnect with the fragments of my psyche to restore balance and purpose.

Christopher Hyatt’s statement—“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF, GET RID OF YOURSELF FIRST”—carries the raw, confrontational energy of radical transformation. At first glance, it seems paradoxical: how can self-improvement begin with self-erasure? But Hyatt, isn’t speaking in riddles—he’s pointing to something fundamental about identity, limitation, and personal power. Let's discuss.

In this episode of Soulcruzer, I dive into the ancient concept of the daimon—that inner force that’s been calling me (and maybe you) toward something deeper, something more. I’ll share how I’ve learned to recognize its whispers, create the right conditions to connect with it, and most importantly, act on its guidance. This isn’t about comfort—it’s about transformation. If you’ve ever felt pulled toward an unseen path, this episode is for you.

Reality is not what it seems—it’s a construct, a fragile illusion upheld by collective belief. For those who glimpse beyond the veil, the realization can be both liberating and terrifying: nothing has inherent meaning. Some recoil into nihilism, paralyzed by the absurdity of it all. But the Existential Chaos Magician? They see this as the ultimate opportunity.This post is an invocation—a challenge to embrace the void, not as an abyss, but as an open field of possibility. If meaning is a construct, then belief is a tool. If the rules of reality are arbitrary, then you can rewrite them. The Existential Chaos Magician moves through life with intent, shaping reality through will, perception, and play. This is not passive acceptance but active creation.What does it mean to truly live on your own terms? To discard imposed narratives, sculpt your own mythology, and transform the chaos of existence into personal power? This post explores the guiding principles, practices, and mindset of the Existential Chaos Magician

In this episode, I take you along for an afternoon walk as I explore a phrase that caught my attention: “Learn to see the shapes of things rather than the stories.” What does it mean to perceive reality without immediately turning it into a narrative? How do we strip experience down to its raw structure before the mind rushes in to impose meaning?I dive into the tyranny of story—how our minds are wired to turn life into a coherent narrative, even when reality itself is more like a landscape, a shifting web of patterns rather than a neatly plotted novel. What if we could resist the urge to explain everything and instead train ourselves to see the world through shapes, structures, and rhythms?Through reflections on art, perception, emotions, and chaos magick, I explore how shifting our way of seeing could help us break free from rigid narratives and gain more creative control over our experience.

In this episode, I explore the idea of living life as an RPG (Role-Playing Game)—what it means to own your narrative, choose your playstyle, define your character arc, and fully embrace the journey of discovery, challenge, and transformation. Inspired by my love of RPGs like Dungeons & Dragons and Gamma World, I break down a Life RPG Framework that helps map out our personal adventures.

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes Episode Overview Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I’m recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that’s just part of the journey. In this episode, I dive into some thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter J. Carroll, a foundational text in chaos magic. I finished listening to it during my travels—six hours in the car, a couple more on the train—and it sparked some reflections I wanted to share with you.  Main Themes & Takeaways Reality is Malleable – What if reality isn’t fixed but something that can be shaped? What if belief isn’t something you have but something you use? Liber Null presents magic as a kind of hands-on science for hacking consciousness, testing reality, and bending the world to your will. Chaos Magic as a Radical Shift – Written in the late 1970s, Liber Null challenged traditional esot

I'm thrilled to bring back the Musical Journey Show! This is a nostalgic nod to my past, harking back to the days when I hosted on Radio Warwickshire. It's been years since I've been down this path, but there’s something about 2025 that feels like the perfect moment for its revival. "Because you've gotta have goals" after all, and returning to the rhythm of this show is definitely one of mine.

Episode Summary:Hey folks, join me on one of my early morning walks where I dive into everything from infantry flashbacks to creative frustrations and the tools I’ve been using to keep my head straight. This week, I’ve been wrestling with some mental blocks, but breaking out my trusty paper journal helped me see things more clearly. Along the way, I talk about the differences between digital and analogue journaling, share my thoughts on populism and politics, and geek out a bit over Google Notebook LM, a fantastic AI-powered tool I’ve been experimenting with. This episode is a blend of reflections, insights, and, as always, a bit of wandering off the beaten path.

Q: what is it about me that i can't keep my virtual hands off of creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology?

In this episode, I dive deep into a question that’s been looping in my mind all day: What is a life for? More specifically, What is my life for? It’s one of those questions that feels simple on the surface, but the more you dig, the more complex and infinite it becomes. I’ve been pacing around, wrestling with it, and decided to hit record and let my thoughts flow freely.

Episode Overview It’s Monday afternoon as I record this, just before stepping out for a brisk walk to clear my head after a full day at the desk. In this episode, I reflect on the transition from holiday mode back to work, share some updates about my revamped website, and explore why blogging matters more than ever in the age of social media’s walled gardens. Along the way, I dive into my ongoing passion for the Indie Web movement and why I think we should reclaim blogging as a space for self-expression and serendipity.

In this episode, I’m out on a walk—my first good ramble in weeks—navigating the muddy fields and reflecting on life as we sit in this in-between time of Crimbo Limbo, that strange stretch between Christmas and New Year’s Eve. It’s a time I usually dedicate to reflecting, recalibrating, and looking ahead to what the next year might bring.

The Mirror of Echoes is a mystery play exploring the interplay between language, emotion, and thought. Four seekers, each with a unique perspective, participate in a ritual to summon the entity Logoi. The ritual unfolds in three acts, each focusing on a different aspect of this interplay: language's limitations and power, the complexities of pure feeling, and the ultimate merging of self and other. The audience actively participates, becoming integral to the ritual's outcome, which is not a resolution but a paradoxical confrontation with the nature of being. The play ultimately questions whether we control language or if language controls us.

a late night epiphany.

In this episode, I take you along on one of my favorite walking routes around Southam, exploring the art of walking as more than just a way to get from A to B. Along the way, I reflect on how walking can connect mind, body, and spirit, transforming each step into a meditative practice. Join me as I share thoughts on the power of movement, the hidden stories in familiar places, and the joy of letting the journey be its own destination.

In this introspective conversation, we go deep into the nature of co-creation and self-reflection in the digital age. Is an AI merely a mirror of our thoughts, or can it become a genuine “other” in our journey of self-discovery? We explore archetypes, the boundaries of authorship, and the mythological lens that reveals surprising depths within our exchanges. Join us as we examine what it means to engage with AI as both a reflective companion and a creative partner in understanding the psyche. Perfect for seekers, mystics, and anyone curious about the intersection of technology and self-exploration!

In this episode, I share my answer to the question I've been wrestling with: how do you reduce the interference of fear and ego? Fear and ego often show up as these trickster forces that keep us trapped in outdated stories about who we are and what’s possible. I found a few things you can do to shift your relationship with fear and ego that will help you balance and embrace them.

In this episode, I unpack my thoughts about blogging for self-expression and self-discovery, digging into my journey to reclaim creativity in the chaotic noise of social media. I also share some raw insights about working with the Light Seers Tarot Deck, especially how the King of Wands, King of Swords, Queen of Swords, and Knight of Swords have stepped in as my guides. Tune in as I explore the balance between leadership, creativity, and building authentic online spaces.