Self Love Journey 101

Here is a short poem oI wrote that expressed my joy of parenting but the push towards being the bet person I can be. Join me in the journey of motherhood in today’s Spoken word.m, Enlighten Me.

Today’s journal reading captures the moment where I affirm the changes I want and remind myself to love.

I was clenching my jaw so hard from the stress that I was having constant migraines and lock jaw. Surprising how our mental anguish shows in our physical bodies. Do you find yourself clenching your jaw?

This journal entry captures my attempt at the time to schedule a routine for myself and my family that would push me through the rough days. This schedule allowed me to keep moving even if it felt robotic at times. When I lacked the willpower this allowed me to push forward. I knew exactly what would happen next according to the daily alarms on my phone for throughout the day.

This journal entry captures my struggle to be okay with not pursuing my dreams and giving up my career in order to be a mother and wife.

This episode captures a moment when I was facing imposter syndrome. The universe opened doors when I thought everything had shut. I gave up my dream of being a game developer and the opportunity of what I thought was a lifetime. Yet the Universe knows

This journal reading captures the anguish I felt on having to give up a career stepping block and choose my family over that goal. I had to put aside my personal goal and choose what was best for my family.

Today’s journal reading captures a day where I was setting my intentions for the rest of my life. I was striving for a better me but also for a happiness that was genuine and that would carry my family for years to come. The dream of a balanced family with a very deep rooted love.

On today my heart is heavy. I lost my daddy on the other day. It’s been a whirlwind of decisions, and emotions. I am pushing forward because as a veteran he instilled in his kids the discipline to push forward. I miss my dad. He dedicated most of his life to Nursing and ran a local nursing home where he was the only male nurse and his residents adored him. He is truly missed.

I spiraled down a world of negativity but also the feeling of being overwhelmed. Stress eating and failure piled on to me until I was overweight with hair falling out.

Today’s podcasts Captures my thoughts while going through a cycle of worry but also the feeling of being inadequate and not enough. I felt that my worth had disappeared the day I stopped working and decided to become a stay at home mom.

Join me on today for meditation at night as I count the stars. I wanted to bring you along to my sacred time in which I have learned to balance my mind but also life. This practice has brought me much peace and allowed me to learn to be present.

In today’s episode, I will read a journal entry that captures the pivots moment in my life. The day I decided to face the music, face my anxiety and kick depression out of my life. I Faced the music and Accepted my flaws.

This is a very short reading to day from my journal but it captures a very authentic moment of joy.

A journal entry that is read without editing but in it’s entirety and with the full rawness of exactly how it was written that day.

This is a tale of how I lived with Postpartum Depression but also how I overcame it.

Starting today I will be reading from my journal. Unedited. It will be my thoughts starting in June of 2018 when I first started feeling unrest and the need to change. I didn’t know how but I still arrived. I began minimalism and many other healthy practices to strengthen my mind and body.

An update on my mental and physical health. I set out over a year ago to evolve beyond what I felt was a broken woman who was crawling out of the darkness of postpartum depression. This is my tale, my life, my Victory. Come join me along the Journey as I pursue Minimalism, Dream Career and Strive to Truly love myself.

Self Love Journey and mental health recap from last week about anxiety and postpartum depression

A day of reflection and inspiration to keep pushing even when it’s hard.